...today is the day...

ii am a strong believer in everything happens for a reason!!! well ii can say that today is the day that ii am "OFFICIALLY CAUGHT" ii have been with dudes in the past that made me happy but never as comfortable as you do... its crazy to cuz this shit was a game @ first no feelings involved... but it happened... its crazy the different 24 hours could make... ii like the fact that ii can be who ii am really am around you... FLAWS AND ALL!!! LOL but ii hope this plays out to be a good situation no matter what comes of it... but ii hope your here to stay a while :) ii FUCKS wit you!! LOL

no expectations, no regrets

this sayin "no expectations, no regrets" is really throwing me for a loop... there is a lot of underlinin thoughts that go with this statement... if someone doesnt expect anything for you && you give them everythin it will be the same as givin them nothin... they may appreciate it... but to me it means nothin... me personally, ii believe you tell this to someone you dont really care about, or in the beginnin of a growin relationship... but not when a situation iš comfortable... ii guess ii am the kind of person who expects certain things from certain people... for example my bestfriend, ii expect her to be there when ii really need her, or a person "that ii fucks with"... ii expect them to answer the phone when ii call, or call/text to see how my day is goin... my mom ii expect her to ride my back 24/7!! ii expect things from people all the time... ii care about all these people, yes people ii dont care about or dont know ii won't have expectations for!! but ii guess its because ii care too much about you!!!

"never regret something that makes you smile"

... how can we...

ok last night was one wack ass night! a friend of mine got pissy drunk and was doin shit that was so out of character, then was actin like they weren't drunk!! kinda irritating right... so ii was goin 2 spend a lot of time talkin about the entire night cuz there is so much shit ii can say but ii said it all to my bestfriend but ii did realize something as ii was talkin to her... its so weird as "girls" we want to be there for our friends, we dont want to see them hurt or sad!! my bestfriend && ii are both in situations with dudes that we are both very much confused about... we were so quick to give the other one advice but we can't figure out our own situations!! && we are both libras... which means we are problem solvers, peace makers, && big softies for love, && we want our friends to be happy!! the fact that we both just did this in the same conversation is crazy!! we both said well ii dunno what im gonna do as the other one continued to give advice!! but can't give advice in our own situations!! ii guess its easier to comment on somethin when your on the outside lookin in!!

ii couldn't ask for a better bestfriend!! ii love her!! est. 2000!! we are more alike then we know it!