man o man

summer is here!! ii am so ready for this summer... it seems like this has not been one of my best years... it started off rough and it didnt seem to get any better... damn ii aint never had to struggle this much... but its like ii got to a place in my life and ii was content with that, ii wasnt really moving forward. I was to comfortable where i was. so ii guess everything that is goin on right now is a wake-up call... tellin me its never time to slack or get comfortable you never know wats goin to happen... ii cant believe ii didnt see this until something bad happened to me! this is crazy... but ii guess thats all apart of growning up, right?? Its time for me to stop moppin around and feeling bad cuz thats not helping my situation! ii have to go back to my daily check it and goals to see if ii am staying on track! this is not goin to defeat me.... so many people have it worse than ii do... and ii am acting like it is the end of the world! damn ii need to suck this shit up and take it!!! this is just one part of my life it does not define who ii am!! but now that ii am expressing it ii can move forward!!! one day at a time!

...ii luv yo man...

There is this special person who ii love being around, we have a good time, a lot in common the whole shit, but he has baggage... shit that ii dont want to deal with... but ii cant seem to let him go... ii leave him alone, he come back, ii yell and scream, we wont talk for a while then after awhile ii find myself talkin to his ass again!!!

hes not my man, hes someone else's, someone's father, someone's baby dad.... ii cant allow myself to get serious with this man as long as there is a thought in my mind that he is still fucking her... fa real...

ii have friends that have children and they still have some type of sexual relations with the father of their children. It may not be on a regular but it is every so often. and some of the fathers are in outside ralationships...

ii dont want to be that woman... ii refuse to be her! if ii have to worry about the mother of your child then there is nothing that you and ii could possibly have, its all about trust!! and if ii dont believe that you will never have sexual intercourse with the mother of your children then ii will never have faith in the relationship you are tryin to build with me...

im not goin to act like im givin u all of me, or even committin to anything but we will see what happeneds...

u say u want to see me happy... and u know u havent made me happy in a long time!! but one last go around ii guess? :/

101 likes

Here are my 101 likes... ii know it took me a while! but here they are!! They are not in any order!! enjoy!!

1. bein naked... whether I'm layin down or walkin around dont matter lol

2. fire places

3. laughing so hard my stomach hurts

4. aimin

5. kissing

6. when a boy sings a song 2 me knowin he can't sing

7. slow jamz

8. having fun with my friends

9. MAC make-up && lipgloss

10. takin pics

11. midori sour =) my fav

12. when ii get off work early

13. singin hella loud in the car

14. boys that give head... time 2 grow the fuck up

15. kisses on the forehead

16. breakfast @ dinner time

17. spring time

18. air force 1's && j's

19. singin in the shower

20. big sun glasses

21. tube tops

22. mini babe ruth candy bars

23. when dudes rub my feet

24. dinner parties && kick backs

25. hot pockets && pizza rolls

26. havin a twin sister

27. havin inside jokes with my friends

28. creatin && designing always takes me 2 a happy place

29. watchin movies when its raining outside

30. love love love bein in the movie theater

31. kids

32. Five Heartbeats! its better than the Temptations... lol

33. puzzles--word puzzles && sudoku stuff like that

34. watchin crime shows

35. air plane flights... of course the ones that are not hella crowded!! ii love it! lol

36. cuddling

37. tall boys! 6'0 && taller! tall && skinny! haha

38. cute ass boy shorts

39. when my panties && bra matches

40. eatin out

41. wearin flats

42. eatin ice cream when its cold

43. tote bags && large purses

44. goin to jon's incredible! haha

45. Birthdays!! ii have the best time

46. my sidekick! ii have had just about all of em except that wack ass ID && the slide!

47. polka dots

48. writting poetry

49. positive people

50. new year's eve! its the best

51. Alvin && the chipmunks!

52. dancin

53. ii love a boy that can hug

54. reading eric jerome dickey

55. havin stimulatin conversations

56. Travelin... ii want to do so much more

57. collectin change

58. Martin, Fresh Prince, Living Single, sister sister

59. large sofas with big pillows

60. boys with tattoos! =] lol

61. fluffy pillows

62. Grey Gooses

63. gettin my nails, feet, hair && eyebrows done

64. writtin on the sidewalk with chalk

65. looking @ pictures

66. free stuff

67. spring time

68. road trips

69. when people notice that ii did somethin new with my hair

70. being myself

71. pay days! who doesn't love em? lol

72. Learnin new things

73. Livin next door to brandy

74. reading other people's blogs

75. valentine's day

76. when my gas tank is full! ii love that feelin

77. helpin people out

78. computer, yea I'm a nerd! so wat? lol

79. the lifestyle that ii live

80. cute fire fighters

81. skinny leg jeans

82. Torrid!! luvs it

83. my glasses

84. gold jewelry

85. train rides

86. motocycles.. && motocycle boys! haha

87. Sex && the city

88. lexus Trucks all of em

89. goin 2 museums... love the free exibits @ crocker art on sundays! lol

90. black carpet

91. matchin bedding... (sheets, pillows, comforter etc)

92. The BarBiieZ

93. Hot Chocolate brand of folders && planners

94. super wal-mart!! man my favorite store

95. summer dresses

96. Salt Waters

97. playin in water! the best! beaches, water parks! man ii love it!!

98. sea food

99. real love

100. drivin in a covertable with the top down && letting my hair blow in the wind

101. friday nights @ Teonna's!